She wants her society to refuse this injustice and embody her deepest commitments, but right now it doesn't, and there’s no reason to hope that it will any time soon, or so she concludes. If things were different, if the harmful effects of an outright ban were not gravely disproportionate, then she would happily forsake this painful act of patient endurance and recoup this loss. Returning again to Aquinas’s useful idiom, her will’s velleity toward that act is negative. She would forsake it if she could, but right now, given the circumstances that she finds herself in, she can't. So she endures this objectionable difference—this injustice that she despises—with patience and regards this loss with sorrow.