You could be totally fed up, wondering where your life went. The desire to escape is strong. Going back to the source would help. That could mean many things. A retreat? A trip to the ocean? A vision quest, totally out of time? Give yourself permission to get off the boat long enough to find your way, or find a reason to keep going. Family stuff is bound to be "up". There are issues that haven't been settled that will require more patience and time on your part. If you feel a little restless, within a certain amount of surface calm, everything is on tenterhooks.