You put too much stock in what other people think. All of us have been heavily programmed to believe that these things matter. It does no good to focus on others because it takes us too far away from ourselves and leaves us no peace. You need to remind yourself what you're worth and forget about who knows it. While you're at it; enough with the arrested development. You'd do better to bring all of this intensity and analysis to things that create unity and harmony in your life. Stay open: much of what gives you shelter will come from new and different channels.