Am I good enough to deserve my share of basic human happiness? If not. How to be happy? Do I ever really hurt anybody? If I do. How to forgive myself? How can I not hate myself? If I hate myself and it lasts for a long time. Does it stop me from messing things around? Mostly it is getting much worse. Self-hatred, guilt, and it accomplishes nothing. It’s just stand in the way of positive changes. Before self-improvement, I have to learn self-acceptance. Maybe it’s only matter of time. People do move on and will eventually get past this or that, cats and dogs. Because that is what human being does. If I will survive or overcome. During those time, I either run away from things or face them. Anyway
I am the bad guy. That's my self-acceptance. Unexpected, nevertheless, it's true.